Alone by Zae

With this thinkin when I was younger
I wonder why I wanted to be
Alone
So hungry for interaction
That even if it came in fractions of infractions
I just didn't want to be
Alone
Left in the deep dark recesses of my mind
And I den been this way for along time
Cause all I have left is me to deal wit dis pain
So how long must I remain
Alone
Holdin on to memories aided by conversations over the phone
In search of help for tomorrow
But I have to deal with today
Alone
In this place seperated from home
I have to continue to go on cause I can not not be strong
I'm just so
Alone
Wit thoughts of the flesh of my flesh blood of my blood bone of my bone
So well known
Just
Alone
And I've had some success mingled wit even more regrets as I continue to reflect
Alone
So as stress compile on top of stress and I try not to flip or melt when I get upset
And be left
Alone
Cause I think about how I came so close
Or was I so far
One night wit no stars
All lies and no fact
No main course just snacks
And me
Alone
As I feel like i'm losin my grasp on reality
Cultivated by vivid pictures when I sleep
Littered streets of casualties
So many bodies different versions all me
As peace and serenity flee and leave me
Alone
Now my intellectual faculties are struggling for understandin
Lost and abandon
Left out and stranded
Alone
As mental enemies continue to hinder me and just won't leave me
Alone
So I stay in constant communication wit the author of creation
Beggin, Pleadin
Please don't leave me
Alone!

Poetic

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