a letter to those of importance by camo

to anyone reading,
there's some things i wanna do but they're never happening. i don't have the option despite the opportunity because i've always felt like i had to live for you instead of me and it's kinda saddening, really maddening, but if i get it out maybe i can save my humanity. see, ther used to be this angel on my shoulder, would sit n talk to me but i can't remember the last time she's been seen. been replaced by the voices of those important to me spouting venom viciously through the teeth of some demonic deity that always seems to haunt my dreams. now i'm not trying to be derrogitory, i know they only want whats best for me but their words about a future neither of us can see can be misconstrued and wind up damaging my self worth and how i think you see me. i can't seem to find the support i think i need and i'm not saying it's your fault but hey, it might be. you could try pushing me towards my goals and dreams with just a little cautioning instead of telling me what i want is wrong and its another aspect of my life i'm ruining. i'm already kinda broken, damaged you see. but the broken parts as a whole are a thing of beauty. if you truly love me you can show it by ignoring society and standing by me. i am not the enemy
Sincerely,
The Inner Me