​Since the time of our teens
tight jeans and drunken scenes
we've been good friends'
Dare I say best friends for a time?
sharing tongue rings and blunted highs.
Do you now take it by surprise
that when I look into your eyes
I remember those thighs, lying next to mine.
Our bodies telling a different tale
as soulful vibrations whale.
 
Movies laughter and sometimes the cops
but we always managed our way back to the block.
just within my reach wondering if there was more.
Your girl, My dude, always us four.
 
Why I ask did we stay in the zone
Not ever knowing if our love, could have ever grown.

I took a plea
I admitted my guilt
Even in the lies they built!
Can you see
was my deal just?
Should my judgement be one to discuss?
I say No!
My crimes was real
even if it wasn't the ones in the deal.
I was a bad bro.
In faith, a husband, a dad, a lover,
I failed in appreciating what we had in each other!
I cut my support
for drugs and sports.
Seeking a fame,
being a lame,
when I had a family!
For That!!!!!!!

I'm so ashamed of me...
I terrorized the lives of all
because I felt small
empty inside
and chaotically lost.
"Me! Captain filled with pride!"
I am not Innocent!
I did my crimes!
Beyond the ones from which I signed!
From which they seen
and for what they don't.
But your no different!
So let us say see.
We! (back hand slap emoji, sad face emoji)
#pimpdown (Angel emoji)
#youtoo "I see you." ( lightning strike emoji, Bible emoji)
"I know what you did that summer looking face, but wasn't caught, don't look at me face, looking guilty around the eyes mother sucker face looking..."
(Lol emoji)
three dollars and sixty cent (dollar sign)
Humble
and
Kind.
But we are not Innocent?

Agape, a form of love I am all too familiar with. If I was to specify a time I felt agape I would go on and on through the course of my entire life. It's that feeling of agape that makes me disappointed in us as a race. I know we aren't meant to always agree and there is no spark without the positive and negative energies. It’s just my insanity of wanting life to be one sided and full of only agape.
 
The religious books speak of a day it will end and all will see the truths of our existence. The books speak of a clear divide, those full of agape and those who aren't. I believe in this day, and from it I found peace, but in it there is also discomfort. This discomfort is where I find myself numbed by mind altering substances. We don't know who is loving and who isn't and so in fear of disappointment I numb myself.

If only people felt this form of love, and sought after it, just as the books say we should. Forever striving for the service of agape itself. "He that loves not knows not God for God is Love." (1John 4:8)
 
Unconditional, understanding, selfless, and unencumbered by outside sources. Agape removes fears and doubts, bringing comfort to your spirit. Something as simple as the rain we take for granted, the rain that waters our farms, that feed us, and the animals we eat. Agape can always be seen because the sun returns after night to ensure crops grow and flowers in our gardens bloom before they wither.
 
Agape is real and it's something I always feel.

Young brotha, I feel your pain! I know how you feel, and what you’re feeling, because I went through what you're going through and I felt the same...

You lash out and at times you feel like you should crash out!
 
You feel an emptiness, you feel a void, you feel alone in this world, and when your mother or grandmother can't be everything to you - you become annoyed...
 
What you’re missing is a man in your life, someone to look up to, someone to follow, someone to set the trend, someone one that's the protector to the very end.

You didn't know, you got a father who is in heaven, sitting on high waiting
on you to call out his name, so he can direct your steps and clear the path, it's not hard if you picked up the Bible, started in the beginning took your time and read it to the end. You will see it's many that felt your pain, but every last one never gave up, because they had faith and eventually God made sure they made it to their end...
 
I know this all so well, because the picture of you now is a picture of me then...
 
No man in my life so there was no structure, I was headed for destruction, raised by the streets, headed the wrong way down a one-way; so I became a man before I was a man.
 
Doing things that I never dreamed of, picking up bad habits because it became natural, never thought for a second that I was really intellectual...
 
Finally, I came to my senses sitting in a jail cell, reminiscing about my past life, realizing that it was a bad life.

Now that I have the power to change, and become who I was created to be, who God intended me to be, I can accomplish my goals and dreams because right now in the life I live I operate in faith, because at the end of the day that's the only power I need to make it through them gates...