war within myself by: worth

Ready Aim Fire, the trigger pulled
Shots blazing the chamber doesn’t get to cool
I duck I dodge I fend for my life
I have no weapons to stage a fight
It’s a coup, I’m being overthrown
Hiding in my depths, surrounded but still alone
No safe guard to ensure my protection
The man I face has a familiar reflection
Once my friend now my foe
How could he stoop so low.
He’s called me out
I refuse to engage my brother but the half
Of my other I & the same 
Hell we share a mother
I want to change & just be serene
Calm & peace
Yet he’s attacking my spiritual decree
I pay homage so I can maintain my composure 
One false move can lead to his full exposure
Violence, animosity, hatred boiling to the top
I am who I am not, only the Lord
Can stop this blackness of this kettle’s pot